Alan

Alan, you’re the most sweetest man i have ever met. i really want you to know that you have such a kind heart i really do appreciate you coming into my life. once i met you my life changed completely. i just knew i wanted to be with you. i just knew you were the one. i knew i wanted to commit to you. i felt a connection the first day we met. once you told me you had feelings for me i had to tell you i was talking to someone because i didn’t want to hurt you because i care about you. i know you kind of trust me and that’s on me. i want you to trust me with your all. im sorry for making you think i would hurt you. i don’t know how to get you to understand that i wouldn’t do that to your kind heart. i would never do anything to hurt you. i know i have a cold heart but i have a soft spot just for you. my heart belongs to you. i could’ve just given up on you but i don’t want to you’re the love of my life and i feel a spark between us. this type of love is something else. this whole relationship was kind of new to me since no one has cared about me so much. the whole communication thing is new to me since i don’t express my feelings like that to anyone and i know i can with you, it’s just hard. but trust me i’m trying my hardest because i know you would like it if i communicated with you. it kind of sucks you’re still stuck up on your past. i wish that shitty ass relationship you had could just go away:( i love you amor😞.