Desolation

A feeling of chronic emptiness and loneliness. Abandonment of ourselves, and not listening to our own hopes and desires. You might abandon yourself unintentionally or unknowingly because you’re striving for perfection or others’ approval. You might stop caring for yourself while focusing on other things you think are paramount to you. Abandoning ourselves can spark anxiety, depression, guilt and shame. You may displace the feeling of sadness with emptiness. This kind of empty feeling comes with not caring about much, not being interested in things, not feeling fueled by anything in particular. If this emptiness is because of a loved one’s passing, don’t get angry with yourself for grieving years later. Because it is agonizing to lose a loved one, and though the loss changes shape over time, it never becomes OKAY that the person died… In that case you learn to live life alongside that hole of missing that person. Sometimes, the hole forms because you missed out on love while you were growing up. This doesn’t mean you didn’t have a loving family. There are just certain kinds of love .