a lonely lighthouse

a polite version of severe paranoia. a person (most likely a female) who often feels deeply alone and dismissed for no reason whatsoever, usually only because of the sheer fear. this drives her to the road of insanity and misinterpretaion of the reality. usually winds up saying bad things she does not really think and pushing away people she really likes. she therefore ends up with the instant feeling of guilt, regret and - paradoxically- truly alone. the lighthouse reffers to the state of mind- a person is so closed within, so self-centered and emotionall that is also extremaly crazy, overthinking and overanalizing in addition. no one can really stay around the lighthouse too long without getting furious and mad.