Terrence

Terrence is a beautiful kind and loyal soul. That I was to afraid to let in. He was my best friend since 6th grade. He was the most compassionate friend of mine. I never knew I had fallen in love with him unit it was to late and there was plenty of things I wish I could have said and so many beautiful moments where I could’ve told him. He was wild but mature and the summer days always made me thing of him. I miss looking into his brown eyes and the sweet romantic moments that ‘just friends’ don’t just have. I miss the way he would put his hand on my lower back while he would run his fingers in my hair.I miss those moments with my Terrence and how it felt that It was only you and I and how time stopped every time I was with you. You made me feel beautiful and safe and love every imperfect of mine because of how you touched me. I’m sorry I was afraid and my fear scared you of the possibility of an us. I wish I didn’t have to live with the ‘what if question’ that lives in my mind, but I hope your happy with where you are in life. But I wonder if you wanted to kiss me that day as badly as I wanted to kiss you. I wish we kissed that day in the parking lot. You have no idea how I dreamed of us kissing for the very first time and how the timing could finally work for us. Terrence was my almost love. I regret being so afraid and not being able to give us a chance and not tell him that I loved him and I think I might always love him.