Suicidal

Suicidals are just angels ready to go home. Some Suicidals will actually go through with it. They play with knives, hang themselves up high, try to fly, consume too many pills, and that's sad. I feel numb, I don't feel anymore. Sepf-harm is all I know, its all I can feel. I've played with knives, consumed too many pills, I've even tried to hang myself up high... But the hospital closed up my cuts, and helped my survive the pills, my cousin found me before the rope killed my body. I want to die. But here's the thing... How can you kill yourself, if your already dead??? Cause I'm dead on the inside, but loving on the outside...