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Hey evelyn, i know we have a long history and everything but i just really felt like i needed to let you know my feelings. For the past two years i know ive acted like i liked other girls but ive always wondered why i cant ever seem the commit to them. The reason is you, I always uncontrollably want to come back to you and i dont know why but id resort to talking to other girls to numb my feelings for you but they always come back. I remember when we first met you told me that im only 14 and how could i know what love was, but i do know what love is because i love you, I have for the past two years and i dont know if i will ever stop. For these past 2 years ive always watched you grow close to other guys and grow apart and every single time ive envied them because every single time none of them were me. I loved being by your side and the only time we were close was then you were speaking to one of my friends and we all hung out together like wesley, daniel and andrew. ive grown close to this feeling of being by your side as a friend and being only on the sidelines of your relationships. Even though i wished it was me standing in their places but i think if i could live these past 2 years 100 times over i would choose to be supporting from the side every time.